Fin.

Friday, December 4, 2009

9:46 AM

and it happened again.

the period of retardedness has come again.

and i don't want it to beat me down. neither do i want it to beat you too.

and today. was a bad day.

1) mother's anger

2) kept falling asleep during pnpe lect

3) stepped on a snail on the way out of school. (R.I.P snail)

4) in the midst of anger, punched some walls and doors. ended up with bruised knuckles. (dumbass sandra. that doesn't solve anything.)

it got me into a state whereby i didn't know whether to laugh or cry at things. :|

but then i can't afford anything to bring my mood and attitude towards things down.

yep. i'm trying my best. putting aside problems and differences. letting them store in a deep space somewhere inside of me.

meanwhile, let's focus on things yeah?

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

5:16 AM

i feel so mixed now. lost my appetite.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

8:18 AM

i feel more (: and (: by the day :D

whee.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

8:20 AM

okay first and foremost. ignore those words *points up to the upper left hand corner*. i got this skin because of the colour and design. not the damn words! no emoism. no no. haha

being with you is like a dream. (: no i don't think i would want to jump down anytime soon at the awesome rate that we're going. <3

anyway................................................i went to the hosp for the review. with him following me :D

the mri showed that one of the ligaments/tendons is strained. :/ hmm i don't know. haha. seems as if it's more of something else then just an ordinary strain. oh well.

after which i got poked thrice in the left arm for a blood test. this was done for further testings and such. after which i have to go back there in another 2 months for yet another review. -_-. rah.

haha. but i somewhat felt super happy today. it was as if nothing could dampen the mood. :D this is the first time in a long while that i actually felt truly happy. :D

because now i've realised that people do actually care for me. (:

especially you :D

by seeing the way you treated me today,

just made me so grateful and deeply appreciative of your actions (:

(: (: (:

no words can honestly describe the happiness that i'm feeling right now

all thanks to you my dear :D thank you for everything (:

your <3,

just you :D

Monday, November 16, 2009

9:20 PM

motivation is something that i need really badly.

i keep falling asleep in class.

i'm lazing around now.

i somewhat feel left out (???-> no idea how to describe it :/.)

and now i'm officially worn out.

or burnt out.

whatever you call it. haha.

though i might not show it, i definitely feel it. :/ thus the daily sian-ness. -_-

and this is a problem that has been bugging me inside since the start of poly life. sheesh.

sigh. really need to get my act together. it's already considered my 2nd year in school. but things are going on at such a rapid pace that i can't seem to be catching up. hmm.

so yeah i really need that motivation.

and

doctor's review is on thurs and i just hope that the condition isn't severe.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

9:57 AM

yay.

(: (: (:

happy 3rd!

isly as always! looking forward to many many many monthsaries together :D :D :D :D

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

7:58 AM

hmm.

a lot has been happening. but i'm not gonna let it affect me in one way or another.

this is one song that really picks my mood up after major windfalls. (i've posted the vid for this song some time ago but still. it's a wow-er.)

Emotive unstable you're like an unwinding cable car
Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are
Go your own way, even seasons have changed just burn those new leaves over
So self-absorbed you've seemed to ignore the prayers that have already come about

This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in

La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la
La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la

Backing away from the problem of pain you never had a home
You've been misguided, you're hiding in shadows for so very long
Don't you believe that you've been deceived that you're no better than...
The hair in your eyes, it never disguised what you're really thinking of

This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in

This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in

You're so brilliant, don't soon forget
You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart
You're so brilliant, don't soon forget
You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart
You're so brilliant (This is the correlation)
Don't soon forget (Between salvation and love, don't drop your arms)
You're so brilliant (I'll guard your heart)
Grace marked your heart (With quiet words I'll lead you in and out of the dark)

La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la
(Don't drop your arms)
La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la

This is the correlation of salvation and love (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
With quiet words I'll lead you in

This is the correlation of salvation and love (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
With quiet words I'll lead you in

no matter what we are going through,

no matter how bad the storms are,

no matter what wrongs and mistakes we've made,

i just want to let you know that,

i still love you (:

let's work things out together,

and achieve great possibilities in time to come.